day 1...
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
♥ 8:42 pm
today is a better day than yesterday. that's even though there's a whole mixture of feelings that's inside. there's not so much guilt from yesterday, more laughter, and a little bit of the feeling of longing for someone.
SC results were out today, i'm happy that those juniors that i hope would get in, got in. congrats jess, trini, michelle & joy, you deserve it. of course i'm surprised at some results, but as a senior, i don't think i'm in any position to say anything. like president said, it's the 34th SC, each batch is different and unique. unfortunately, what president said this afternoon in the CA room worries me- that this batch, as compared to ours, is a world of difference, for the juniors
seemed less serious about this whole SC stuff. anyways, like i said, there isn't much for me to do, or much that i should say, because ultimately it is their contributions to the college that really counts. i can only pray that my grad night this year (which the juniors will be planning) will be a bang, so i'm crossing my fingers.
as usual, council meeting totally cheered me up. there was the hilarious laughter that never fails to erupt like a volcano, but more importantly, simply the presence of the CA wingers made it somewhat special. my 'sister' was MIA today, so i didn't have my sitting partner with me at the usual seats ): *get well soon dear* doing the survey with
my boss was interesting haha, especially when so many people in council didn't know what cults are. and that led to the crazy frenzy that everyone went into cos of that. hahahaha.
and today he left for survival tinggi. for NYAA. it's only been 4 hours but haha like so many people say: it seems like eternity. day 1 and 4 more to go. and i know you won't be reading this but... take care, stay safe, will be praying for your safe return. someone is missing you and no prizes for guessing who!
oh, and happy 18th birthday qiyi!
when you look me in the eyes, i see a glimpse of heaven.
bittersweet ice cream
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
♥ 9:49 pm
if i may say this: ben & jerry's free cone day is such a troublemaker.
i felt like i was going on trial in court, going through the immense torture that seems to last for eternity, all that while awaiting death.
yes that's how bad it is.
i'm not playing up the drama here. thing is, never have i been so scared before, and it was so bad today, and that the almost conversation-less walk back to school is more than enough proof to justify how bad it was.
as sweet as the ice cream may be, if your emotions aren't up to the sweetness of the ice cream, not even the sweetest of ice creams can make you feel better.
the not-so-important annual awards rehearsal that 'required' (note the punctuation) my presence wasted my time that could have been better spent on maths or playing better songs (i love music and playing the piano but not songs that totally bore me out) also made my emotions run high.
well, other than that, i've also learnt that even teachers can play a prank on us students.
and all along, i thought only teenagers like me are capable of such stuff. =.=
shan't reveal the details here, those to whom i've told, you know what i'm referring to.
nonetheless, i feel guilty to the point that i kinda dont wanna see my home tutor tomorrow for fear of the consequences that await me.
anyways, all that aside, joining the saikang warriors for gw's environmental week project kinda cheered me up.
top it up with starburst gummies that usually causes me to go on a sugar high, i guess i felt better. well, only that teeny weeny bit.
i think the 1 day break on labour day is the only saving grace. yieks.
take care at survival tinggi, you know someone will miss you.
finally! something worth mentioning!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
♥ 9:07 pm
yay! i went for svdp food distribution today after missing last month's session. well, today there were many more J1s. haha. kinda comforting to see a nice number of J1s turn up. (:
today's session was a little different from the past; it was a little more disorganised, hence it took longer than usual. plus, 2 elderly folks got left behind by the bus. poor them! one of them is sam's and andrew's favourite old folk (: and there weren't enough eggs to go around, although they somehow managed to find enough for everyone. as i went about usual routine of helping the old folks carry their huge bags of rations, while at the sheltered walkway helping an uncle, and after the uncle had taken a seat to wait for the bus, an old woman simply stood up and scolded him using vulgarities in dialect! my pres, tricia, and i were shocked O_O and i thought this was most common among teenagers today. didn't go out to the HDB estates with the adult volunteers cos there were enough J1s to help out, so sam, andrew and i headed to great world city, then to town.
and i had a good time with the 2 of them. well, put a psychopath, a horny girl and a saddist together and you have a crazy time. of course in a good way (: but i don't know if andrew will wanna follow us girls (sam & me) out again...haha.
i guess sam and i felt kinda bad towards andrew for always looking at girl stuff, making andrew feel awkward more often than not. all 3 of us had bubble tea in 3 different flavours. it's been a VERY long time since i had bubble tea. so it made it all the more refreshing on a hot, humid day like today. saw so many mary-janes (they're shoes) keds have the nicest prints (that sam claims is so-me) but melrose had the nicest price for the print it had. ah, but i didn't give in to temptation! HAHA. also went for the flea market at the youth park today, but we didn't stay for long cos sam couldn't tolerate the blaring music. oh wells, no loss, i got some pretty stuff (: attempted to buy a bag at far east too, but was unsuccessful. and sam and andrew got exasperated. haha. sorry you two! soon soon, maybe after mids when i'm out again (:
so it was a good day out, well-deserved in fact. from now till end of the term it's back to mugging to pass all my subjects. ah, shan't end this post in this depressing mood. and i'm sorry to all of you reading my post, i know this is a really weird post. HAHA.
PSYCHOPATH, HORNY GIRL & SADDIST. haha. till next time! (:
keeping your sanity.
Friday, April 25, 2008
♥ 9:34 pm
20 Ways to Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity
1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries with that.4. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It 'In.' 5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso.6. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write 'For Smuggling Diamonds' 7. Finish All Your sentences with 'In Accordance With The Prophecy.' 8. Dont use any punctuation9. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.10. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat with a serious face. 11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go.'12. Sing Along At The Opera13. Go To A Poetry Recital And Ask Why The Poems Don't Rhyme14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play tropical Sounds All Day. 15. Five Days In Advance , Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You're Not In The Mood.16. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling Name, Rock Bottom.17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream 'I Won!, I Won!' 18. When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives, They're Loose!!' 19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner. 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.' 20. And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity.......Send This E-mail To Someone To Make Them Smile. It's Called! Therapy.got this from an email. for those who are stressed and all those stuff, this will help. i hope. at least maintain that much-needed level of insanity. haha.
happy birthday!!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
♥ 9:08 pm
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to my sis: happy sweet 16!! (sorry i know i'm 1 day late, but nonetheless here's a shoutout!!) hope you get to read this when you do visit my blog haha. anyways, happy sweet 16! welcome to nc16 movies and the wonderful thing called Os. haha. and may all your wishes come true! may the Lord send all his blessings on my baby sister, and may our sisterhood be filled with everlasting love! LOVE YOU SIS!! (:
to germaine: happy 18th birthday!! although you're all the way in the land of pasta and pizzas and gondolas, i'm sending you a thousand wishes and blessings from our good Lord so that you'll have a smooth sailing year ahead! (: God bless and may all your wishes come true! (: I LOVE GERMAINE! (:
to gracemary aka james' sis: happy 17th birthday! (:
and 2 months on, we will make it work!
pictures to add with the dedications will come when the PC is working. the laptop is empty =.=
heats today, funny happenings in school. heats was ok, we put in our best! sam and i had a super funny time trying to overtake mrs loke while on our way back to class for maths tutorial from econs lecture. mrs loke also kept overtaking us, and repeat this process of mrslokeovertakesamandmarie-samand marieovertakesmrsloke twice WILL make you laugh. at least, it made sam and i laugh like crazy all the way back to class.
anyways, till the weekend. ciao for now (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESS YOU!
aches!
Friday, April 11, 2008
♥ 9:41 pm
it's been about a week since i last updated, needless to say, school beckons. 3 consecutive tests this week, 3 consecutive days of physical activity. so there are aches all over- the body and the head. yup, i think these drained my energy earlier than expected. add that to heavy math lectures, dreary physics lectures and the mind-boggling chem lectures, what could be worse for now? oh no, and there's the planning for FARM 3. and FARM is supposed to take place next month. i think i may go loony. yieks.
choir concert on tues. not bad lah, could be better in terms of song selection though. the other 2 schools were good too. i liked circle of life by dunman sec (: and the combined pieces too. got videos of them, but uploading them is a chore =.= met a lot of 4/1 people, yay, it's great to see so many indons again. haha.
and there was blood donation yesterday and this afternoon. oh and PW results were out this morning. secured a grade that still qualifies me for scholarship, but i'm generally quite indifferent about it. maybe a little disappointment, cos about 75% of 800+ people also got roughly the same grade. bro paul was glad though, it's one of the best PW results yet (:
and there's the thing with the juniors.
so it's time to sign off. in need of a new bag and probably window shopping just to relax a little. cos marie is zonked out >.<
with faith like a child.
update!
Saturday, April 05, 2008
♥ 2:29 pm
it's been a really
interesting week. quite an emotional roller coaster actually. lots of stuff has happened since i last blogged- the turning of a new month, which translates into days nearing the A levels, the daily interactions with schoolmates...nothing outwardly interesting. not even the april fool's prank the councillors helped, much less Bro Paul's 4H2 thingy. urgh. and yesterday, you'd witnessed first a happy marie-turned-reallypissedoffandi'mfreakingannoyed marie. yes, that was how bad it was.
you told me i didnt handle the situation well. well, i admit it, and i'm a million times sorry. it all stemed from an outburst of emotions that was simply intolerable. i know it's not an excuse, cos you don't do that, whether it's about me or anybody in the whole wide world. yesterday, it was just me. now i know. and i think everyone knew that from the beginning. so it's primarily MY FAULT. the 2 hour talk cleared the air, thankfully it's over, hopefully, never to have to happen again. yet, all that you felt yesterday, you didnt deserve it, AT ALL. i don't know how i can make it up to you. i really don't. you say it's ok, that i'm forgiven. but i know it's affected you so much, it takes a VERY long time to truly get over this. and not even sticking out my tongue can we forget about this whole misunderstanding.
all i know is that i'll try my best to be a better person, for the sake of everyone i know. you told me what so many people were thinking. i've nothing but yet again, a million trillion zillion thanks. cos that was my fear from the beginning. mum knows that, and now you know that too.
help me along, that's why you're here. right?
and to those who were part of this whole saga, thank you for being there, to give me a earful and wake me up, to give advice, to listen to my awful rantings and stupid complaints, and to help with the 2 of us. you know who you guys are.
*slap myself*
relax, i'm ok now. just wanna write it out. err, type it out.
