experiences.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
♥ 6:18 pm
after counting, i realised that this will only be my 5th post of the month. this is very unlike my usual self where i blog every 3-4 days, but this is the pre-A level period, so i guess i gotta sacrifice some blogging; anyway, life has been quite mundane, though there's the occasional hilarious laughter and stuff. but after 2 hours of maths, i think i could use a break, so here i am, blogging my 5th post of the month (:
today i tried CJ's muslim food for the first time in my life as a CJCian, haha, and this somehow brings me back to my times in IJTP when i only ate from CJ's equivalent of chinese wok just days leading to graduation day. haha weird me. and i was thinking how A level preparation just seem so identical to O level preparation (think: other schools' prelim and past year A level papers and excessive mugging), so it brings back some memories about how my sec 4 class ended off the academic year (not inculding the Os of course!) with a pizza lunch. and this is bringing some ideas to my head now for my present class, though i think hardly any of them will be in the mood for a thanksfortheawesome2yearsinCJ lunch. nonetheless, i'm very grateful for T14 and 4/1, with or without a pizza lunch and sorts, because it's the journey that is more worth it (:
If you envy successful people, you create a negative force field of attraction that repels you from ever doing the things that you need to do to be successful. If you admire successful people, you create a positive force field of attraction that draws you toward becoming more and more like the kinds of people that you want to be like. ~ Brian Tracy
ouch.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
♥ 6:52 pm
somehow today isn't really the right day. i don't know if it's me, but a certain someone at home kept stepping on my toes. not that i wanna get upset, pissed or angry, perhaps it's the continuous youkeepgettingonmylastnervebutithinkicanletthatpassbutyoukeepirritatingme thing that gets me cracking. not a good feeling, but something that i can't help but to feel. i'm not exactly ready to overlook it right now, so hope this certain somebody leaves me alone for the rest of the day. relax, all you who read this, if you're not the one, you're safe heh.
anyway, let's recap my not-so-rewarding week at school: i got back all of my prelim results, and not so surprisingly, my grades dropped. as always, my poor ears have to hear all that nagging from my parents. i know my grades aren't fantastic (in fact it was a general drop) but unlike what my parents seem to think, i treat this as part of a learning process- i see the prelims as merely a way to see what one is still weak in, a way to see how one can improve. i firmly believe that this is not the time to peak, like mrs leong told me this morning before mass, peak now and not only burn out later, you lose the motivation to give it your all, cos after all, you kinda gave it your all in prelims. neither do i see this as a no-hope situation, cos for so many, there's still time to do so much more to improve. i don't know if mrs leong was just being nice and putting things in a nicer way, or if this is really the case, but that's how i see things right now.
parent's nagging aside, i'm gonna work my guts out and beat the odds! (:
pardon me for sounding too idealistic. heh.
a little optimism goes a long way.
random thoughts
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
♥ 3:03 pm
so school's started again after the prelims, and things have been quite ok in school. going through the answers to the prelim papers and getting back our marks for physics and chem paper 1 doesn't make things better, in fact, it's kinda making me demoralised. ): i kinda expected these anyway, prelims were kind of a mad rush to finish studying, but apparently this time round i lack the focus to abstain from all forms of temptation. argh. first the olympics, then the post-olympics syndrome where you just turn on the tv, flipping through channels and attempting to find something interesting to watch. and i think it's the thought that prelims don't count for entry into a local university (as yet) that's not pushing me to study hard enough. ):
it's hard to get back into the momentum and start studying again, but i'm trying! (: slowly, but surely. hopefully i'll be back in full steam by end of this week. gonna do a math prelim paper later, but i think i'll invite many MANY comments where i'll expect people to tell me to do A level papers instead. i honestly think my strategy is all wrong now- i did TYS qns before prelims, but others were doing prelim qns. now i wanna do prelim papers, but people are doing A level papers! i'm really confused actually, cos this was the strategy i took for O levels, and it kinda worked,
i think. yieks, i think i'm seriously in trouble...
other than the pressures of academia, which i think i'm coping quite well with, there's also the personal problems. won't elaborate here, but it's seriously bugging me. talked to aunty mary over the weekend, and she really gave me a lot of insight, which i think is quite true, and advice which i think i'll employ. but it's the constant thought about it that i think is not healthy for me, especially at this point of time when i should be studying more than worrying about these things. yet it is a pressing issue that i can't wait to solve. thing is, i don't know how to solve it. been praying to the big one up there, and i'm still waiting for a sign. i think i'm avoiding the whole issue altogether. what to do what to do what to do what to do what to do what to do what to do what to do......
aye, i'm gonna take a shower now, hopefully it'll clear my mind.
till next time (:
As, As, go away, never ever come again, little children wanna play, As, As, go away!
post-prelims
Saturday, September 13, 2008
♥ 12:06 pm
so prelims ended yesterday with a near-catastrophic physics paper 1. ok, maybe not catastrophic, just horrible. couldn't do so many questions, and wth 5 questions on measurements was insane! ): ): before i start my stuff, happy belated birthday, GW. i know i'm over a week late, nonetheless, i hope it's better late than never.
anyways, my highlight of the day was our (clarisse, mandy, fifi, johan, david, martin, jethro, christopher, michelle & me) trip to bugis after lunch at manhatthan fish market at PS (my 2nd trip in 2 weeks). met my dear joyce woyce there! (: super fun time doing all the random-est of stuff with the class. heh, shan't elaborate more here. bugis was equally fun, well, there was a reversal of roles- guys went shopping, girls accompanied and provided our 2 cents worth of opinions. haha. it was the most major shopping spree that i've ever seen a guy/ guys go for. interesting experience. after bugis street, we went to bugis junction so mich could get her ears pierced! and how i applaud her cos it's her 3rd time piercing! after a good 10 mins or so we finally found the goldheart jeweller, settled all the admin stuff, and finally it was down to the piercing. david, johan, jethro and chris were there too, but of course their expressions and anything that came out of their mouths would make mich laugh, so we chased them away. i lent mich my hand to grab during that whole few-minutes process, and even i couldn't bear to look at the jeweller pierce mich's ears. so there goes my plan for second ear holes after As. haha. a little more shopping and i left earlier than the rest who went for dinner together.
will update again soon.
someone once told me:
life is like chemistry. dilute your worries, evaporate your sorrows, and fill your life with crystals.HOW TRUE.
prelim blues
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
♥ 9:00 pm
this will be short: we're half way through prelims, thank goodness for the 1 week break. i really need it, and i wish it'll never end...
met up with some 4/1 people on thurs- jianeng, porsi, eunice, szeching , xiu ling & joyce, surprised eunice with a mini birthday celebration! (btw happy belated birthday eunice, my longest-ever-consecutive-years-classmate! haha. oh oh and photos will come soon...heh. went back to IJTP last fri to see teachers and met jianeng, eunice & joyce (again) & michelle law & meng jung. had a totally fun time with them.
on a sad note, i've been feeling frustrated. REALLY frustrated. heck that now, prelims prelims prelims! cross my fingers (and toes) and hope to do decently well! (:
going on a hiatus now.
